Sunday, May 31, 2009

Salem Pond





I wrote this back in 2002 for an assignment. I believe it was to establish a sense of place by using all the senses. It couldn't be more than 500 words, although my first draft was over 2000 words since the memories just started flooding once I got going. I had to pare it down to the bones to fit into the allowed word count. I had to leave out most of the family interaction and the little traditions we've built up around the place, like the pop can races in the tiny canal and pools on the hill, and the frisbee games and Uncle Dee's awesome cookies. I also left out the humorous parts about the ride there in our sometimes working station wagon and Dad singing "The Hole In The Bottom Of The Sea", making up extra verses to make it last longer.

Salem Pond

Dad's Family had picnicked and canoed at Salem Pond at every Memorial Day since he was a baby. By the time I came along, Thirty two years later, the tradition was as set in stone as the worn epitaphs of the nearby cemeteries that we visited before the park.

Salem Park's main attraction was a sprawling tree-lined pond roughly shaped like a question mark. Bulging fresh mown hills and towering elms raining their seeds along the curving shores obscured three fourths of the view, making the pond look deceptively small from my seat in my uncle's rented tomato red canoe. Breezes rippled the water's surface in patches, disrupting the mirrored trees and snow-peaked mountains against the pale blue of the sky.

My bare feet tapped the half-inch of cold water at the canoe's bottom as I balanced the paddle across my bare knees and peered over the canoe's edge. Unable to see through the cloudy blue-green depths or even past the surface littered with feathery water plants ans floating algae. I caught my wavering reflection. My undulating smudged face grinned back at me as my long blond hair spilled over the thick padding of my of my glowing orange life jacket.

With Dad silently steering and paddling behind me, I straightened up, pushed my hair back behind my shoulders and gripped my paddle. Leaning up and dragging back, I pushed forward through the murky water with a rhythmic splush-slunk, splush-slunk. The acrid smell of pond scum rising to my nostrils and the occasional spray of bitter, stale water splashed my face and lips from my poorly aimed paddle.

The breeze blew strands of my hair into my mouth and my nose wrinkled in disgust as I caught the manure fragrance from a nearby farm. Dad and I paddled and splashed furiously forward and rounded the marsh grasses of the narrowing bend.

The canoe cut a shimmering waked behind us, crisscrossing endlessly with breeze ripples and waves from a line of eager ducklings following their mother.

Ahead was a high, bow-shaped footbridge with rust-splotched triangles of ironwork lacing its underside. Topside were fishermen, silently standing, their lines hanging down and swaying in the breeze with round half-red, half white floaters bobbing below.

Beyond the bridge the yellow-green weeping willows of the opposite shore hung their drooping limbs to the surface. I rested my now aching shoulders and again leaned over the side of the canoe. the sun glittered off the quivering waves. The depths were clearer here and through our surface shadow I could see our second long, twisted shadow on the uneven bottom, and the bubbling, boiling sand of natural springs.

We turned around, the heat waves danced up the air, wobbling the view. Sunshine beat down causing sweat and sunscreen to trickle down my forehead and sting my eyes. I blinked repeatedly and wiped my dripping face with my shirtsleeve. Sweat ran down the back of my neck. I lifted my hot, heavy hair for a cooling breath of wind. It was time to head back.

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Finally!

So, seven months later, I'm entering my last Fairytale Poem. I don't think anyone has held their breath for this one,and if they did they would have long ago slipped into a coma. The is one is based on the Red Shoes, a cautionary tale against vanity and selfishness. For any girl who would love a good time and pretty shoes more than her obligations must indeed be a very bad girl, or something like that. I personally love red shoes, I own two pair, one pair in flats, one pair with spiky heels and pointy toes, I don't wear those as often because they are absolute torture to my senstive feet, but man are they fabulous! Anyway, on with the poetry. This is meant to be read in a hurry, like chanting slightly out of breath.


Red Shoes

Red shoes, red shoes,
ruby red shoes.
Red shoes, small shoes,
dancing red shoes

Pretty, so pretty,
I want the red shoes.

Red shoes, now my shoes,
pretty red shoes,
Watch me, so gracefull
in my red shoes.

I'm dancing so flirty
until the party's close,
but my shoes don't stop dancing
and I'm stuck on my toes!

Stop me! Please help me
get out of my shoes.
No help I dance on
over forest and town,

through daylight and black night,
no rest for my shoes.

I've had exough dancing,
I'm thin and worn out.
So tired, so tattered,
except for my shoes.

Mercy! I ask you
cut off my red shoes!
let me die, let me rest
away from these shoes

Red shoes, cursed shoes,
removed at last.
I'm bandaged and crippled
but free from the dance.

February 2007

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Fairy Tales #6

The penultimate fairy tale poem. This one was inspired by a tv commercial for xm radio of all things. The commercial featured a singer I'd never heard of, and hauntingly awesome piano playing. I misunderstood the words she was singing, though, I thought I understood them perfectly. I eventually found the song by youtube sleuthing and it was "Better" by Regina Spektor. By then I was a little familiar with Regina's style and it didn't surprise me she was the one I was looking for. I looked up the real words and my version wasn't even close. I decided I didn't care. I liked her words, I liked my words. So I started writing a full version of my lyrics which turned out to be from the point of view of sleeping beauty. The first lines of the real lyrics are "If I kiss you where it's sore, will you feel better, better, better, will you feel anything at all?" I had heard the first words as "If I kiss you, will I wake?" Which didn't make sense, but it got me started all the same. If you want to hear "Better" it is on my playlist third from the top. My version starts out fitting into the meter of the song, but eventually strays since I wasn't really trying to stick to the song.

If You Kiss Me

If you kiss me will I wake?
If you kiss me, will I find
that you love me
wholly,
completely,
and fully,
Will you even love me at all?

High up in this tower
where dreams are only dreams
and the thunder snores around me
sound like roaring ocean waves.

If I kiss you will I find
that you only wanted a prize;
and never really wanted more than
a trophy,
a princess,
and power;
and no love at all.

So what does it take to love
someone you've never met before?
Would it be better
to have known you forever
or will one kiss be enough?

If you kiss me will I cry,
from the wound of years alone.
Will you forgive me for tears of joy
mixed with spindle's pain.

If you kiss me will I wake
from this endless empty dream?
Will real life be better
than I could imagine
and will I ever know?

August 2007

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Fairytales #5


I wrote this one originally in 2002, but edited out a lot later, I just can't remeber when. I had restated the story too exactly so I left in enough to stay accurate and cut out enough to suit my sensibilities.

Snow Queen

Shards of dark glass
in his eye and heart
and the Snow Queen's freezing kiss
have stolen my Kay away.

Winter so dark and lonely without him.
Spring's new hope starts my journey.

The river carries me far from home.
A loney crone keeps me with her spells,
but her roses remind, it's Kay I must find,
so I leave her behind.

My love for him fills me
and opens the hearts
of birds, beasts, royalty, and robbers
to assist my quest to find my Kay.

At the end of the earth
stands the ice palace.
Kay at last!
but so cold, so still, so stiff.

My eager arms embrace
and welling joy spills
in hot tears that thaw his heart
and open his eyes.

Then he knows me.
Kay is my Kay again!

We're back home in warmest Summer.
Childhood is left behind,
but our childlike hearts beat together
never to freeze again.

April 2002

Sunday, July 13, 2008

Fairytales #4

This one was written around the same time as the last two poems, but I have little memory of it. I did have a drawing for this one once, but it has disappeared. It was of the two main characters in the fire together, so it was romantically tragic or morbid, depending on the audience.

Steadfast Tin Soldier

Balanced on one leg
and gazing across the room,
I, a paper doll for admiring
see my one-legged soldier
in tin attention, never retiring.

Lost by a child's carelessness.
my steadfast soldier gone!
I would weep for loneliness,
but my painted smile stays on.

At last, at last,
he is returned,
saved from the belly of a fish,
but thrown in the fire and burned.

No!
He must know he's loved
before he's gone!
I cannot watch him die alone!

Catching a draft of air, I leap.
My paper body burns in a flash;
and his melted tin keeps company
with the spangle from my sash.

April 2002

Fairytales #3




This one is not my best, but I'm including it anyway since I have a very limited supply of good poems. I think I wrote this one in the same long night of poetry as The Little Mermaid.


Princess and the Pea

Up the ladder, anticipating comfort,
I climb into the strangest of beds.
I'm glad I'm not afraid of heights
or I should not sleep for dread.

The twenty mattresses are firm,
the twenty eiderdowns soft,
but I just can't get comfortable
on this padded loft.

What is that lump?
I'm sure that I can feel
a rock under my back,
hard and sharp, and real.

What do they mean by putting me here?
Is this some kind of test?
They'll never see the princess in me,
if I get no beauty rest.

April 2002





Sunday, June 1, 2008

Fairy Tales #2


This one was part of a massive poetry writing night. I believe I wrote four or five in one evening, though I did go back and edit liberally later. This picture's colors didn't translate well, the spray is supposed to be blue, not yellow, and the background should be grey, oh well.


Little Mermaid


I have no voice to speak my love;
the price I paid to stand by your side.
I must die unless love is returned,
but you have chosen another bride.

There is but one hope left for me
if I am to return to my home in the sea.
I must stab your sleeping heart
with the Sea Witch's cruel knife
and you blood drip on my human legs,
to return to my mermaid life.

But I love you
so I can't.

Formless now, I return to the sea,
my loving spirit in the churning foam.
So feel the spray as a kiss from me,
the mermaid who couldn't go home.

April 2002

Fairy Tales




I have a lifelong fascination with folk and fairytales. I've written several poems that either retell a fairytale or just capture a moment of the tale. All of these poems are written from a female character's point of view and most of them are of Hans Christian Anderson's tales. I'm proud of some of them and not so much of others, but I will include all of them in the series. Since I haven't updated my blog in so long I'll include two today. I'm also including two sketches that go along with the poems.



#1 is about Thumbalina, I wrote this just after graduating from Rick's college and I don't remember anything else about it.


Thumbalina's Flight


Fly, Swallow fly!
away to air,
away to light,
away from moles,
away from night.

Swallow fly!
in wind and song
swift, swift,
swift and high.

Fly!
to lands of life.
Breathe the sun,
taste the air.

Fly me!
Fly me there!

June 1999

Wireless Woes

I'm having unbelievable stress in trying to get my computer to work with the wireless at my apartment. After a couple updates and a few hundred dollars, I still don't have internet. So I'm continuing to blog from my parents computer when I visit on Sunday afternoons. I may eventually either get my computer to work with the wireless or just give it up and buy a new laptop, but that step is a long ways away.

Sunday, April 20, 2008

Picture of the Week #8

This is my kitchen at Rick's College. I spent about an hour arranging it for this drawing after my roommates went to bed so it wouldn't be disturbed. I stayed up for hours drawing it, but that was common for me back in the day. (staying up all night that is) Ah, to be young and stupid again. We actually did have Kermit the Frog sitting on our cupboard.

Poem of the Week #8

This poem is actually true for me.

I Never Dream of You

I never dream of you.
My night visions never include
those who occupy
my every waking thought.
If I dream of anyone
I actually know
then they are those
I haven't seen or thought of
for years;
or those who maintain only
peripheral positions in my life.
So you see,
I never dream of you.

February 2007

Picture of the Week #7



This is a portrait of one of my former roommates, Natalie. I convinced her to sit for me so I could do my figure drawing homework. Modeling is actually very hard work. I can't do it because I am physically incapable of sitting still. I blame the ADHD. Natalie actually had ADHD as well, but she could sit long enough for me to draw her head.

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Poem of the Week #7

I am far too familiar with this subject.

Insomniac's lament

First to bed,
last to sleep;
much as I love solitude,
I would prefer
to be wide awake
with the sun
and companions.

May 2000

Thursday, April 10, 2008

Picture of the Week #6


This is a still-life from my color class. It's almost the only one I kept, and definitely the only one I liked. Most of my projects from that class were completely forgettable. I did this painting in about ten minutes and enjoyed myself hugely. I believe the object of the assignment was to mix all colors on the palate, none on the painting. This was supposed to help me see colors individually and not comparatively, or something like that. I guess it worked, I have often bought something in the store and had it perfectly or almost perfectly match the color of a coordinating piece at home.

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

Poem of the Week #6

I wrote this one for and about my dad.

Bedtime Travels

Sitting at the foot of my bed, he would lean over my feet
And if he was tired, try to get away with
The three bears or
The three turtles or
The three parakeets.

"No, Daddy, a real story."

Then we went mountain climbing or
Spelunking in dark caves smelling of damp
With bats, colorful stalactites and underground rivers;
Or night parachute into enemy territory or
Stand with heroes, overcoming great odds.

And the next night his sieve-like memory
Couldn't recall his stories
Untill I retold them word for word.
And we were off, parachuting back into the caves,
Just to climb our way out again to fresh air and
A sky-full of stars.

July 2006

Sunday, March 30, 2008

Picture of the Week #5



This is supposed to be red, but the color was lost in translation. This was a birthday card for my younger brother, Jack, who spent time in China. I used the Chinese Zodiac for the pictures. I also attempted to use Chinese hieroglyphics for the message. I attempted to say Happy Birthday little brother rooster, love big sister horse. My Chinese was from the Internet, though and made no sense at all, so I removed it and just left the cheesy horse and rooster.

Poem of the Week #5

I'm not going to explain this one, so there.


Ear to Mouth

Let me try
ear to mouth
respiration

Mouth is dry

Ear is full
of secrets
never told

Never tells
what lip reveals
or sells

Lips are sealed

To dying ear
mouth is dry
let me try

October 2007

Picture of the Week #4

I'm trying to catch up on my pictures. This is my jeweled dancer, I was taking a watercolor class at the same time I was taking History of Dance. I had just learned about Ruth St. Denis and her explorations into Indian and other Eastern dances that were a prelude to the Western world's beginning of modern dance. Anyway, I was thinking about that when I sketched this in my watercolor book.

Drawing of the Week #3


I realize I'm behind in the picture department. This one is really old, a watercolor wash from high school. I'm sure I copied it from a magazine. I had no interest in fishermen in high school.